Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful for:

*lessons learned---I learned today that I need to keep walking by faith even when it seems nothing is happening.

*days off---even though I am usually cleaning the house or doing laundry on my days off, I am grateful to have the time to recharge (and leaving the tv off helps, too!).

*unexpected words of kindness---thanks, Sandy!

So I called this morning to make my doctor's appointment, only to be told that they don't have me on file. What?? I was told I had to go back to my family practice doctor and have her give me a referral back to my OB's office. Seriously?? I called the family practice office and was told that my doctor was on vacation for 2 weeks. Ugh...I guess it is what it is. I've set the wheels in motion, so that's what counts.

My weekend was great, except for missing Mike. He had to go to Chicago for the weekend for work and so he missed the family reunion. We had a lot of fun! Here are a few pics: The sun going down over the lake was one of my favorite moments.

I love this picture even though it is dark--this is my brother and my niece, playing with sparklers.

I was terrible about taking pictures this weekend, but my mom got some good pictures (thank goodness!). I think I just get caught up in the moment and totally blank on getting out the camera! Anyway, I am glad we all got to spend the weekend together. The moments we spend together seem too few and far between.

Pushing Forward

Yesterday was an emotionally draining day. I cried on and off all day long. I said a couple of weeks ago that I was going to finally take the next step in our TTC journey if I didn't get pregnant this month. Well, it didn't happen this month, and I am taking it harder this time than any other time. I have been feeling like it's been time to move forward, but at the same time, I was still holding out hope that it was going to happen naturally. Who am I kidding--I still have hope that it's going to happen on its own, but it was heartbreaking for me to realize that I may have been fooling myself into thinking that there isn't a problem.

I don't know what the future holds for us, but I do know that I am making a doctor's appointment next week. I need to feel like I am making some move in a positive direction, but to be honest, I am having mixed emotions about it. On one hand, I am happy that we are going to get to the bottom of it, but scared that they are going to find something wrong that can't be "fixed". Ugh--I need to stop and take a breath. I have to keep reminding myself that what is meant to be, will be. I need to hand all of this over to God.

Thankful Thursday

This week is flying by! One more day of work and then I have a three day weekend. I am so looking forward to it, since we are having a family reunion this weekend. I promise to take some pictures so you all can see my crazy, funny, but amazing family!

Today, I am thankful for:

***family traditions---these are becoming more meaningful to me as I think about having my own family.

***hope

***inner strength---though I may not always have it, I know it comes from God and I need to show it more often.

It's an icky day

Do you ever have one of those days where you know you can sleep in, but your mind won't let you? That was me this morning. I tried and tried to shut off my mind, I flipped from side to side to try and get comfy, no luck. Instead, I got up and attempted to make coffee. Now, for some people, this isn't rocket science. For me, it is. I cannot seem to make a pot of coffee to save my life. You should have seen it--I had water everywhere, not to mention coffee grounds on the floor and strewn all over my countertops. Here I was, trying to measure out the perfect coffee to water ratio, and I somehow get coffee grounds inside the tank of water. Since Mike was sleeping, I screamed silently to myself. 10 minutes later, I finally have the coffee brewing. Success! Well, that is until I actually taste it (it's brewing now!).

Another reason for the title of this post? Today was supposed to be a day on the river with friends. We were going to get our tubes, our cooler and spending a few hours floating down the river. That is, until I saw the temperature this morning. 55 degrees. Not to mention that the sun is nowhere in sight. I swear, it's just like fall. And the worst part? I don't think the temps have hit in the 80s since the beginning of June, and I have the feeling it's not going to warm up anytime soon. I am bummed that we will probably have to cancel our plans for the day.

Summer, where are you?

Thankful Thursday

My heart just feels so weighed down today, but I know that I am thankful for:

*this Scripture verse: "For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ." I can't tell you how this brings relief to me.

*a faith that will get me through and that encourages me to fight even when I don't think I can.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday, Honey! Don't worry- 31 is not old even though it sometimes feels like it! I hope you have a wonderful and blessed day today and I love you so much.

Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful for...

*a day at the beach with my mom.

*my God who knows my fear and burdens.

*an icy cold latte on a warm day.

The sweetest thing

I got the sweetest (literally!) surprise when I got back from my vacation from my friend and co-worker Meg. She spent her vacation on Mackinac Island, and came back with the most delicious fudge. Mackinac Island is well known for its fudge, and the Murray Hotel is not messing around with their brand of fudge. It is the best darn fudge I have ever tasted (and I have tasted a lot!). They have flavors like Heavenly Goo, Chocolate Raspberry, Coconut Bon Bon, and Blueberry Cheesecake. Meg knows me too well and my love for all things peanut butter and chocolate, so she picked me out the Peanut Butter Explosion. It is so heavenly!

If you need a sweet pick me up, this is the fudge to get! Check out the site- http://www.4mackinac.com/

Thankful Thursday

Today I am thankful for...



*my job---and opportunities to grow, even when it's difficult.

*a hot cup of coffee in the morning

*Mike--this amazing man who makes me laugh, cooks us dinner, and who is my partner in all things!

Jamaica

Finally I have some time to sit down! I feel like I have been going non-stop since I got home. Our flight landed back in GR after 9p.m. on Sunday, and then I unpacked a little, and then headed straight to bed as I had to work super early on Monday. Yesterday I was off from work, so I spent the entire day cleaning the house from top to bottom. I don't know why, but I felt like I had to clean EVERYTHING in the house. Cleaning binges are exhausting.

Anyway, so our trip was awesome, but too short. We left Wednesday, and were supposed to arrive in Jamaica around 1:00. Well, we get to the airport around 6 a.m., only to be informed that our flight to Memphis had been cancelled due to issues with the crew. Panic mode set in. There were 11 of us traveling together, including the bride and groom. Now we were all going to be on different flights, and we were worried that the B and G wouldn't make it down to Jamaica in time (you have to be in Jamaica for 48 hours before you can get married, and their wedding was on Friday). Yikes! Needless to say, the B and G were the first ones to get on a plane and thankfully, got to Jamaica only an hour later than they were orginially supposed to. The rest of us, on the other hand, had to spend the rest of Wednesday sitting in airports. Mike and I spent 8 hours in the Miami airport (the longest amount of time out of everyone in our group). Fun times, I tell you. So, we lost all of Wednesday.

Not counting Wednesday though, our trip went off without a hitch. The weather was gorgeous, but so darn hot. All I wanted to do was wear my bathing suit and play in the water. We got up super early every morning to claim our spots by the pool, and we would have breakfast, and then commence the sun bathing, followed by drinks at the swim up bar.
The only bad thing about Jamaica is that everywhere you go, even at the resorts, you have people asking if you want to buy some pot (or even other things!). It was so annoying. Even when you were laying on the beach, you would have guys on SkiDoos pull up to you in the water and ask you. Enough already!


The wedding itself was beautiful, although for a while we thought it was going to downpour. It was a short ceremony, but it was very sweet. Especially when the groom started to cry. I almost lost it right then and there. See, the groom is a tough guy, and I have never seen him show emotion like that. The reception was also on the beach, and the food was surprisingly good. I don't know why, but I thought the food was not going to be so hot, but as it turned out, it was actually very good.



I am so glad we went--I just wish we could have been there longer, and that we ALL would have stayed at the same resort. Running between 3 different resorts was not all that fun. Oh well, we know better for next time! Anyway, here are some pics of the trip (we're lucky we have them because there was almost an incident where we lost the camera!).



Rehearsal Dinner on the Beach--Humidity does bad things to hair!

The Bridal party have a drink and relaxing!

Mike and I at our swim up bar!

The beach at our resort--the water was so warm!

I am ready to hop back on a plane and get back to Jamaica. The weather here has been cold and rainy since we got back! Anybody want to go with me? ;)