Friday, November 7, 2008

Moving on

Tomorrow was supposed to be my due date.

I was going to have the best 30th birthday gift ever.

And then I miscarried...

I had a moment last night while doing my Bible study. It was a moment of clarity, I guess you could say. I realized that I have been living these past months with one foot firmly planted in the past, and the other foot ready to take on the future. ANd the entire time I have been praying for God to help me. It became clear last night that God has been telling me it's time to move on, but I've been ignoring him. How can things get better if I won't let them? Sometimes I am my own worst enemy. Sometimes I get in my own way.

Well, I'm not going to stand in my own way anymore. I am moving on. Both feet are moving ahead, and I can't look back if I want to be happy.

I'll have another due date.

I'm going to have the best 30th birthday anyway (or did I mean 29, again?).

And then I lived....

8 comments:

AmberDenae said...

You are inspiring. You will get your little miracle!! :)

Nicole M Wood said...

I will say an extra prayer for your strength. You should do somehting special for yourself today...

Sarah said...

Thanks girls!

jaime pott photography said...

I will definately be praying for ya. I know you will have a due date soon. It has to happen.
I am glad to hear your have progressed. You will feel alot better.

mrs.leah.maria said...

We really can be our own worst enemies. I'm glad you can feel that direction from God.

I'm praying for you my dear.

Kim said...

Sarah! I will definatly be praying, you will get your little miracle! your an inspiration to me, and I'm so happy to know you!

homegrownhospitality said...

Happy Birthday..I will say a prayer for you tonite..keep the faith...

Shawn said...

Happy Birthday, Sarah! I know the intense longing to have a baby. I have had two miscarriages. I am realizing more and more how many of us there are out there. Praying for strength for you in the waiting.
Love, Shawn