New Scripture Verse

The Lord has done great things for us and we are filled with joy. PSALM 126:3

That is my new Scripture verse for the last 2 weeks of December, and I think it fits my life so perfectly right now. To say that we are filled with joy is an understatement! I can't believe that we are in this place. I mean, I had faith that God was with me and heard me all the times I cried and believed He was making a way for me, but I just never imagined THIS. Sometimes, I still feel like I am waiting for something bad to happen. Like it's too good to be true. But then I remind myself that God IS good and to enjoy every minute of this experience. This is His plan!!

Pregnancy Highlights

I had my 12 week Doctor's appointment today! Other than having to wait forever at the office, it was a pretty good visit. We were able to hear both heartbeats with the Doppler and both were in the 15os. Relief washed over me, as it does every time I hear that awesome sound. My doctor said everything looks good! So here are the Pregnancy Highlights this week...

How Far Along: 11 weeks 6 days (ok, so practically 12 weeks!)
Total Weight Gain: 3 lbs
Sleep: No problem, but still getting up at least 3 times a night to go to the bathroom.
Best Moment this Week: Hearing the babies' heartbeats!
Gender: Don't know yet
Movement: None
Food Craving: Bagels and cream cheese, chocolate milk, QDoba Naked Burritos
What I Miss: Hot baths!
What I'm Looking Forward to: Our next ultrasound
Weekly Wisdom: Whenever you can, rest.
Symptoms: Nausea is gone, but I am still tired.

Thankful Thursday

I have officially started my Christmas shopping! I should have started a few weeks ago, but I really didn't have the energy. I was hoping to get the majority of it done today, but no such luck. By the time I made my way through 3 stores, I was tired and in desperate need of a nap. Surprisingly, the mall wasn't as busy as I thought it was going to be! Maybe everyone is already done with their shopping, or perhaps they are just waiting until Christmas gets closer? I don't know, but maybe it's just a sign of our finiancial times.

And that leads me to my Thankful Thursday...

Today I am so thankful for...

*that Mike and I are in a position where we are financially stable and have not had to face the struggles of losing our jobs, our home, etc. like so many others have.

*God who reminds me that the greatest gift that we could ever have is His son Jesus!

Hello Everyone!

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! Mike and I did, as we do every year, and there was entirely too much food, but that's one of the best parts of Thanksgiving, isn't it? I had to be to work on Black Friday at 5 am, which is sort of like sleeping in! In past years, I've had to be there as early as 3:30, so being there at 5 was actually kind of nice. I even went to bed early which is hard for me do (I usually end up tossing and turning). We were busy and had one of the most successful Black Friday's we've ever had, but things ran so smoothly that it didn't seem like it was chaotic at all. And not one grumpy person!

But I have to mention my little bl0gging hiatus for a moment. There was actually a concrete reason behind my lack of blogging, even though I said there wasn't. And although everything I said in my last post is true, there was just more to it. Mike and I had something going on in our lives that was all consuming and something that I couldn't share at the time. It was an emotional time for us, but we are feeling so blessed beyond words. Here's 2 reasons why...

(Sorry for the terrible picture--my scanner is not cooperating, or maybe it's operator error!)

I'm beyond happy to announce that I'm pregnant! With twins! This ultrasound pic was taken at 7 weeks and we were able to see both babies perfectly and see and hear their heartbeats! I bawled my eyes out and Mike started laughing. Hard. Like it was the funniest thing he had ever seen or heard. I honestly didn't know what to say, and the words didn't come out right away. I just cried.

We had another ultrasound at 8 weeks, and I will post those this week (if I can figure out how to enlarge them). Again, the babies looked great and the hearbeats were the sweetest sounds I have ever heard. It was such a relief to hear the heartbeats, I can't even tell you.

Currently, I am at 11 weeks and still am pinching myself. I can't believe we are here. I can't believe that everything that I have been praying for has been answered. I feel a million different things, but blessed is the best word I can think of to describe this. Or maybe thankful beyond all description is better.

So that's the major reason I have been away from the blog world. I was waiting to tell my brother Paul and sister-in-law Heather and other loved ones in our family on Thanksgiving, and I couldn't seem to want to blog about anything else.

I started this blog when I was in a sad place, thinking that it would give me a place to truly be myself. And it has. You have witnessed my road of difficulty as I dealt with my miscarriage, and my journey with infertility, and now I can't wait to share this new chapter of my life with you!

Here's Proof

Here it is...Proof that I am still alive! Excuse the blurry pic and the very flat hair, but I had just put up our Christmas tree and well, my Blackberry doesn't take the best pics.

I am sorry I've been away for so long. There's no real reason I haven't blogged except that it sometimes felt like I was forcing myself to write something. Anything. And it started to feel like a chore and that I was trying to keep up with everyone else. It sort of stressed me out. So I just put blogging on hold for a little while. Thanks for being patient and coming back! I promise that the blogging freeze is almost over.

I will be back on a regular basis starting December 1, but until then, I hope everyone has a blessed and happy Thanksgiving!

Thankful Thursday

It's been such an icky, dreary day! But I can't complain too much because it was my day off and I was able to catch up some rest (I'm determined not to get whatever is going around. That and the flu shot helps too). I had a dentist appointment this morning--cavity free! Then my parents and I went out for lunch. After lunch my mom and I made our way to Costco to return a pair of boots. While we were there, I had to stop and check out digital cameras. Yes, I am still saving for the "nice" camera, but I feel like I need an inexpensive one to get me through till then. With the holidays coming up, I don't want to be without a camera to capture the memories! I saw a few that fit my price range, but I want to do some more research and read user ratings before I actually fork over the money for one.

Anyway, I haven't done a Thankful Thursday in a while (heck, I haven't blogged in a while!) and I feel like jumping back into it today. So here goes...

Today I am thankful for...
*the chance to see a friend, even though it was only for a few minutes. Thanks for dropping off the candle, Jeanie!

*making the time to spend in God's word. I always feel like something is missing when I don't--hmmm.. I wonder why?

Yesterday

Yesterday was National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day, and I didn't even realize it until the day was practically over. Although I think it's great that we have a national day of rememberance for all of the women who have suffered miscarriages and infant loss, I think it's something that I carry with me every day. I miscarried in April 2008, and I still think about it all the time. Even though the sharp edges of pain and sadness have been smoothed by time, there will always be that dull ache in my heart when I think about it. Which leads me to my new Scripture Memory Verse for the last half of October...

The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him. -Lamentations 3:25

I keep searching. I keep on praying. I keep hoping for a miracle...