Up and then down. Up and then down. I can't seem to get off this ride. Every fiber of my being is screaming for me to get off. But I can't.
The roller coaster ride is my job right now. One day things are ok, the next I am crying in my car on the way home. I'm sorry. I wish I could get into details, but I can't. I am a mess. I keep wondering why crappy things happen to good people. I know that something good is going to come of all of this, but I have no idea what that could be. Nothing is making sense. I keep praying, hoping that God will pull me out of this. Until then, I guess I'll just be HIS mess.