Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Another Plan

Yesterday was not a good day, although I was gearing up to have a relaxing day off. Soon after making my post yesterday, my doctor's office called to give me the results of my CD 21 bloodwork (checking my progetersone levels). I was hoping for good news, but unfortunately, none came. My levels were at a 2.4 and they should have been at least at 5. This means that for some reason, I never ovulated. So, essentially the Clomid worked to mature the follicles, my body showed I was having a LH surge, but I never released an egg. Ugh... I was so upset I couldn't hang up the phone fast enough.

So now my doctor is increasing my dosage of Clomid from 50mg to 100mg, and I will also be starting Ovudrel which is an injection. Hopefully the Ovudrel will trigger the release of an egg once the Clomid has matured the follicles.

I used to think that every month that passed with a negative pregnancy result was getting easier because I was used to it, but it felt different this time. It felt so much harder. I guess I was just hoping that the first month on the Clomid would "do the trick", and when it didn't, I felt overwhelming dissappointment. I feel like my body has somehow betrayed me. I feel a little scared to be starting a higher dosage of Clomid and to now have to start injections. I guess I just feel a million different things right now! There is so much to think about...

6 comments:

Becky said...

I know it sounds trite, but just take one month at a time, and during that month, one day at a time. Thinking about the future in this context is only going to drive you crazy. I've done the Clomid and injections before, and let me tell you, a LOT of what you're feeling is strictly hormonal. You're being pumped with synthetic hormone and it's hard on your body, even though it's for a VERY good cause. So stick with it, but reassure yourself that a lot of the emotions you're feeling aren't what you'd be feeling normally. I hope that gives you some comfort! I never succeeded on Clomid/injections, but that was for a whole different reason; I feel God had closed my womb because I was in a disastrous marriage. God opened my womb when it was time, and in the right marriage! But, I know LOTS of girls who've had success on Clomid/injections. Please just hang in there...you're doing a great job!!!

Becky said...

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AmberDenae said...

Awww, I'm so sorry sweet sarah. I hope and pray that this next procedure does the trick and you will not have to endure anymore heartache and disappointment. Praying for you!

Jaime said...

Praying for you. Hun...I am sorry this is such trouble for you. HUGS...we need to talk soon...

Kerry said...

Sarah - I never leave random comments on blogs, but I have come across yours because it's linked to someone else's...anyway, I just wanted to offer support...I have literally been in the EXACT SAME POSITION as you with trying to get pregnant...not kidding, 2nd month I did clomid my progesterone was 2.4. that's why i felt God really called me to comment and offer you some encouragement - I'd love to tell you more, but don't want to leave the longest comment ever here, so if you want, email me at k.mandulak@gmail.com or send me your email and i'll share what i've been through...and I promise I'm not a weirdo stalker, just someone who knows (i think) exactly what you're going through. God will not forget you, he will not forsake you, and His promises to us is that we will bear children...hold tight to that promise!

kerry (portland, OR)

The Pifer's said...

Always praying for you and your family.

Love, Hugs and prayers-
Tiff
Thepiferfamily.blogspot.com