Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Thoughts from a tired mind

I just put the girls down for a nap, and really should be taking one myself. I need every ounce of sleep that I can get! But I find myself trying to catch up on stuff around the house, like finally changing the sheets on our bed, vacumming, going through the junk mail, etc. And of course, doing some blog reading! All the while doing these things, I am thinking about...

*thank goodness for vibrating bouncy chairs! If I could just find a vibrating crib mattress, I would be all set.

*how so much of this parenthood thing is a matter of trial and error. We try one thing, and if it doesn't work, it's on to something else.

*I can't wait for the day when they sleep longer/through the night.

*I am so thankful for my mom. She comes over every morning when Mike goes to work so that I can get a quick nap and take a shower. She also has been amazing at just helping out around the house. Awesome...

*I have to admit that I was scared to death the first time I was completely alone with the girls. I was so afraid that I wouldn't be able to take care of them by myself. I have learned that it's a juggling act with twins and I am doing the best I can. They don't know or won't remember if I "mess up"!

*Being a new mom is definitely a life altering journey. It's a role that I prayed for, and while most of the time it is so completely wonderful, I have had moments when I have just broke down and bawled my eyes out at how different my life is now. It has been overwhelming at times, and in those moments when I can see no resemblence of my previous life, I have just let the tears come. And just as quick as the tears came, they went. I think it's so important to acknowledge these feelings and realize that they are completely normal! I wish someone would have told me before that I would have moments when i would cry over nothing and that that is just a part of being a new mom.

Well, this sleepy mama needs to go check on her babies and hopefully sneak in a quick catnap, so off I go!



Congratulations on your beautiful blessings. Crying, being protective it's all part of being a MOM.

I just posted my new bassinet on my blog. There is also a link there to view all about it. It vibrates, has sounds and a nightlight. Maybe something like this would help? It is so big too. Hope to catch up on your blog soon. Hope you can rest. Blessings,

Anonymous said...

Hang in there. It does get better. I won't say it is easier, but it is different. Though I didn't have twins, I felt the first 4 - 6 weeks were the hardest with both my kids. After that, their little digestive systems got better at dealing with gas, the sleeping got better (or I was so exhausted that I could sleep through some crying), and every time I was about ready to give up, they would smile or laugh to make it all worth while again. But, I won't lie, my oldest is three, and I still get overwhelmed with motherhood at times and find myself in tears. No one can make me smile as big, laugh as hard, or bawl my eyes out like my kids can!

rameelin said...

Hi!!! Thanks for commenting on my blog! I've visited here before but am so glad that I found you again so I can save your blog and keep reading. The twins are beautiful! I can't believe that last picture of you--I don't know how your little body held up; but you looked great. Anyway, I know that things are overwhelming right now so I will be praying and please email me if you need to talk at all:
I will be checkin in on you!:)