Those are just two of the many emotions I am feeling at this very moment. I know also, that this too shall pass, as they say.
My OB appt today did not go the way I had envisioned. I thought for sure I was going to walk out of there with a plan on when and how we were going to bring these babies into the world. That didn't happen. We are still on the "let's play it by ear" plan, and it is extremely uncomforting. Dr. Wisebaker is still counting on me making it to 37 weeks (which is fine) and then we'll see what the birth plan is.
I guess it doesn't matter that one baby is 8lbs 10oz already. I guess we're going to see how big we can get her to be, and then if she flips head down, I have to suffer with pushing out a 9lb + baby. Yikes. I am not picturing a good time there.
Once again, I am finding out that my plan is not always God's plan. We just have to wait and see what He has in store.