I think I need to pick up a copy of Beth Moore's book So Long Insecurity and read it ASAP. In fact, I had it in my hands yesterday at Barnes and Noble and walked out of there empty handed.
Let me preface this by saying that I understand that just a month and half ago, I had 2 babies. Two good size babies. At once. I understand that that in itself is a miracle. I know better than anyone what it took for my body to carry those babies. And they are such a blessing.
With that being said, I feel like my body is a hot mess.
Sure, I have lost almost all of the baby weight. Yes, I can get into regular clothes again (well, almost. I'm working on the jeans.). However, my body without clothes on is pretty scary. My stomach is what is really bothering me. I can deal with the massive amount of stretch marks I have. What I am struggling with is the extra skin I have that just hangs there. I don't think that any amount of situps or crunches is going to fix that. And that scares me and makes me sad.
Again, I realize that it has only been a little over a month since I had the girls, and that I should cut myself some slack. I do most of the time. I also am aware that there are so many women out there who would love to be in my shoes. I know because I was one of those women. Before I was pregnant, I would find myself saying, "I don't care what I would look during and after pregnancy. I just want to be pregnant." The fact that I am beyond blessed is an understatement. I am so thankful for my girls. But I am also very human and am struggling with a very human issue.
I think that in time I will get used to this new body of mine and will feel more confident. I am simply not there yet.