Making decisions are just not my strong suit. I can easily decide what clothes to wear, what to have for lunch, what color to paint my office, but the big things? Those are the decisions that I struggle with.
I have been going back and forth about finding a new pediatrician for the girls. We haven't been happy with ours for quite some time now, and I have been waiting for the right opportunity or excuse to switch. We had Taylor's follow up appointment with her doctor today to discuss the results from her opthamology visit, and to talk about the possibility of ASD. We didn't leave feeling strongly one way or another about switching. Ugh!
I wish I had a definite feeling about whether to switch or not, and frankly, I may never have that feeling. What I do know is this. We haven't been happy, we've talked about switching for a long time, and I need to just make the decision to find a new one. Enough of my hemming and hawing about it.
Maybe it's too much to expect, but shouldn't I be 100% happy with a pediatrician? Shouldn't I walk out of the office feeling like the doctor and I were on the same page? Shouldn't I be excited that the doctor actually connected with my child and made her feel comfortable about being at the doctor's office? Is it too much to ask that the doctor actually remember my child and remember what we talked about at the last visit?
Those are all questions that we have asked ourselves over and over. Maybe the fact that we have asked ourselves these questions is the answer. Maybe I need to just listen to my motherly instinct and not settle for just an "ok" doctor. Maybe it's time to stop going back and forth.