Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Getting Honest

I never had to worry about my weight before I had kids. I could eat whatever I wanted and didn't have to worry about gaining a pound.

Oh, have times changed. 

I am getting honest with myself. I have not been happy with my weight for some time. I would not fall into the category of overweight, but I am about 8 to 10 lbs heavier than I would like.   It may not sound like a lot, but for me, it is.

I am an emotional eater. Bad day? Well, it's nothing some pizza or pasta won't fix. Unwinding at the end of the day? Why, yes, I would love some candy to munch on while I watch tv. Feeling happy? Bring on the ice cream. I don't know when this started happening, but it's been going on for so long that I can't remember not being this way.

Now I wonder why I can't wear clothes that I used to or why I get questions from strangers asking when my baby is due. I pretend that it doesn't matter. I pretend that it doesn't affect my confidence. 

But it really does. 

It affects me everyday and I am tired of it. 

I want to change my eating habits but I don't know if I can. If I'm getting honest, I'm afraid to try. Yet I'm afraid NOT to try. 


Anonymous said...

I too have twins they will turn 3 in August and I do the exact same thing, I eat out of convinence and I have soo much extra skin around my stomach I get asked the question all the time. I may try weight watchers but I always fail. Keep your head up!

AEOT said...

I still have weight to lose from Peter too. Lost it all easily from Spencer, but it is NOT as easy the second time around. It's also much harder with 2 to find the time to workout as I should. Ugg.

Have you done Taylor's assessment yet? How did it go? I've been thinking about you!

Sarah said...

We have not done T's assessment yet. We meet with her pediatrician next week to talk about what needs to happen next. Thanks for thinking of us! :)

Jaime said...

Girl...I am with you!!! ahhhhhh we should do it together...=)